I know how you feel. There was a time when I felt awful about the things I was doing and had done at the time. To make it worse, I was getting married as was unsure if I would control my desire for my secret sins and if they would come out and ruin my marriage. I went to marriage counseling to the pastor that would perform the wedding. The counseling went from husband and wife responsibilities to salvation. I dismissed the witnessing before because I'd always called myself a Christian. But what he said stuck with me. Out of nowhere it would pop into my head in the shower, going to work, watching tv, anywhere. To make a long story shorter, God knew that I was in need of being saved. Salvation is God's forgiveness. People think that because God didn't punish them and that He is good all the time and all the time God is good that they are forgiven. Salvation is God's forgiveness. That's why the saved are made into new creatures, behold, all things are made new. God makes the conscience to bring up guilt. That's it's only purpose. The guilt is to bring remorse. The remorse is to lead the person to God to repent. Notice that says "to God". So many have forgiven themselves and spoken on behalf of God when God didn't say anything. Going to God for repentance leads you to the remainder of the plan of salvation. All of this was started by guilt. God's plans were meant for it to be a good thing to draw you unto Him. But some people take it lightly and just forgive themselves. Let God forgive you properly by saving you for real. Not just what you feel in your heart. Some people only wanted to be forgiven so they can feel better. you wanting to be forgiven to please God and to make your calling and election sure is the only forgiveness God recognizes. 1)Believe the word of God 2)Repent 3)Baptism in water in Jesus' name 4)Be filled with the Holy Ghost with the evidence of speaking in tongues 5)Live holy everyday, all day. Many have a problem with #3, the latter part of #4 and all of #5. Read the word and you will find all of them. Remember I said God created guilt to lead you to remorse, repentance and salvation. The devil will try to use that guilt to drown you and make you unproductive to God and now you become depressed. Do the five above and God will replace the guilt with joy and fire. It will be a joy to serve God who has made you free and the fire will be the hatred for sin. Do you hate sin jesusislord09 or do you just think it's a bad, but natural thing. God wants you to hate sin. When people don't hate sin, they commit it. 

[1 Corinthians 6:18-20] Flee fornication. Every sin that a man doeth is without the body; but he that committeth fornication sinneth against his own body. What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own? For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God's.

I have a friend who was still a virgin at 40. God brought her a man & they waited until marriage to have sex. If God wants you to have sex, he will provide a husband for you. If you choose to do it God's way & wait until you are married, you will honor God with your body. God created sex to be enjoyed by a husband & a wife.

Sex outside of marriage will not fulfill you for long. Sin is pleasurable for a moment, but in the end destruction.