Well, I was saved when I was young, like 5 years old. And well I was a good little boy anyway, so there wasn’t’ like a giant life change. What I’m wondering is, can I have doubts as a Christian that I’m going to heaven? Is that a way that Satan can tempt me? I’m a guy who needs proof, and I need that assurance of my salvation. How can I know for sure, without a shows of a doubt, that I’m going to be with God in heaven when I die. I mean I think I’ve seen God work in my life, others have said they’ve seen God work in my life, but I’m just not feeling like a Christian. I’m feeling scared of when I die not being able to go to heaven. How can I conquer that? I mean, I believe I’ve tasted God in worship, and well it’s not possible for someone who’s not saved to come close to that, is it? Like someone who’s not saved couldn’t feel that presence of God, or get to the point in worship where it’s just so cool that you just start crying. That’s happened once for me. I mean I’ve had more little God experiences I think, but nothing like that one big one. I long for other worship times like that. But please pray that I’ll know for sure and have an assurance for my salvation. Pray that I can get that joy and fire for God, to want to know and have more of God. Pray that’ll I won’t be ashamed and that I’ll be able to get to the point in my spiritual walk with Christ that if someone was to ask me to refuse Christ or die, that I would be able to die for Him. I don't’ think right now in my spiritual walk that I could do something like that. Please pray for me. Thank you |