I do not know where to begin with this prayer request, I have been experiencing an empty place in my soul for a while now. I am a Christian, who believes that Jesus Christ has died for my sins, cleansed and forgiven. There was a time that I was truely on "fire" for the Lord, and felt as though I could conquer all things through Christ who strengthened me. I still believe this, but the fire has faded, I find myself unsure. I have almost no desire to attend church services. The odd thing is nothing tragic has happened between there and here to bring about these changes. I do still go to church because my husband and my kids still go, but I can't seem to concentrate and listen when I am there. I don't have answers, I try to live my life according to God's Word, I do not swear, do not get drunk, do not do drugs and I try and love all that God brings into my path. I feel weary though and I wonder if the Holy Spirit has been working in me or if I have been working in me. I do not know how to separate the two. I do not feel as though I over due the good works deal. I depend on God's sovereign grace to see me through this life on a daily basis, knowing that I am a sinner. My husband is suffering spiritually too, and I sometimes wonder if this is what is making me suffer so. He is irritable often, seems unhappy and stressed on life in general. I do not have the answers there either. I guess I am asking for prayer that I would "wake" up to our Lord's hand on my life, that I would have that assurance that He is in control, that he would heal my husband of whatever it is that is causing his spiritual life to be dead and mine as well. I pray that the kids (2) would learn to love the Lord their God with all their hearts, souls, and minds, despite the struggles that I am experiencing. I pray that whoever reads, their prayers would send healing into me and my family's life... |