I have been dealing with insomnia for 5 years. It is so frustrating. Night after night I struggle with my sleep. I feel plagued with new fears and it is not me. I am a person who is a warrior, a fighter of satan and his demons. Lately I feel like I am in a prison in my own body. I am all of a sudden afraid to leave my home. I pray everyday and keep relying on the Lord. I am alone at the moment with my 20 month old son.My husband is away on an assignment with the Army. We have just moved to Belgium and it is soooooooo different. I usually am the type of person that goes forward to meet people and settle in the community, I don't know why I am gripped with fear. At night My mind won't shut down and I think of horrible things I try not to and even have sang songs to God until they stop. My heart races and it feels like i just ran around the block. I have spoke with the doctors but they all want to medicate me and I can't because I have a baby, I am all alone, and no one to help me with him. I don't know what to do, I pray and pray and pray some more and I am not sure what else to do. Please pray and if anyone has any suggestions ai would appreciate it. Thank you all for your prayers and know that as I read the prayer requests I pray for all of you also.Love, your Sister in Christ. |