sigh sigh sigh- at times i just cant think anymore. I feel like I worry about this world too much and tragdey is going to strike at any moment for me. I feel like I dont know myself anymore, I dont know what made me happy and I dont feel happy enjoying the small things in life. I cant focus in school cuz im just thinking about a million thoughts. They just keep running through my mind. The devil keeps attacking me with thoughts of death. But I rebuke the devil and ask God for deliverance from these evil thoughts. I LOVE YOU JESUS. I only want you to restore my mind back to normal. Was it cause of all the drugs I did? Im sorry LORD. Please Forgive me. PLease restore this lost happiness inside my mind. If its the drugs I did, Father please help restore my chemical imbalance back to normal; its so hard to graduate college with this illness in my mind. |