Hi, I am praying for you about this. Your husband is tangled up in the things of this world - his heart and mind are given over to stress and bitterness and all the chaos of a life lived outside of God's love. It's painful for you to have to live with ,and, from my own experience, I know how hard it is, praying for years for your loved one, but seeing no change. God hasn't turned away from you - he's trying to draw you ever closer to Himself. Your husband is dearly loved by Him and not given over to Satan. Sometimes, people have to go a long way down the road of sin before they reach a point where they've had enough and turn to God for salvation. Your husband isn't a lost cause. Try to stay close to God and focus on your own relationship with Him; God will deal with your husband in His own way and time (which sounds great, I know, but is still hard to actually live with on a daily basis).
Try to trust in God - let Him lead you. Don't try to solve all the issues yourself - let Him take on the workload; just focus on finding an inner peace in Him, which will give you the strength to continue.
Don't martyr yourself over this - God doesn't ask or expect that of you. He only asks you to love. Take good care of yourself. You're in my prayers. God bless.
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