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Prayer Requests: Update on Gideon |
I haven't wrote lately to give a update and I apologize for that.
I have been busy being angry. My husband and I have so much going on in our lives I am just feeling like enough is enough. Let me explain what is all going on; 1.) Gideon- We only hear bad reports from the doctor. This is what the doctors report is; -He is on three antibiotics again - He has a yeast infection and another infection but the doctor's don't know what kind that one is yet. -His blood pressure is down -He is on a special machine for his oxygen and breaths ( it's a last resort thing, the name of this machine is called the rescue machine) - they keep trying to take him off the machines so he can breath on his own and he can't handle it - his lungs are getting worse - he has P.I.E. - his stomach for some reason is all bloated and they can't figure out what is wrong - it has been three weeks and 5 days and no improvement 2.) Our home has mold in the walls, a man form the health dep. came and looked at our home and there is water in the walls in almost every room, the humidity is way to high in our home. He took a sample of one of our walls and is going to send it to a lab, when he pulled a piece of the wall out to show me it had mold all over it. Our family has been very sick due to all of the mold in our home. Some of the symptoms we are experiencing are; my husband is loosing his memory, we both have server headaches, our one son has had very high fevers and seizures, we are all very fatigue, my eyes are worse, our noses are stuffed & my two boys noses are constantly running. I have read on homes with mold and these are all side effects. So we are dealing with the builder and trying to get out of this home before Gideon comes home, because if your immune system is low then you will have a lot of health problems. 3.) So this means looking for a new home, which of course means finding time and money for this. 4.) My husband is going to work out of the home, the man he is working for now is not trust worthy. 5.) My older son has been getting into trouble. 6.) financially we are hurting BAD!!!!!!! 7.) Our insurance company is giving us problems 8.) Our son Isaac has been pretty sick for the last few weeks, Didn't eat for over a week. 9.) My Mom and Dad are gone to Michigan and before they left my Mom came over and said some very mean things to me. 10.) With my Mom gone it is hard to find a baby-sitter for our one son so I can go up during the day to see Gideon 11.) I have been sick and I have a breast infection 12.) Our one son just turned three so he just started a new school and a lot of help for him has stopped. 13.) It seems like when my husband and I go threw hard times we do it separate, We do not take each others hands and go through hard times. My husband does not know what to do when I cry so he leaves or pats me and acts like what are you crying about. I have just felt overwhelmed in the last few weeks with all that has come my way. I have felt like what am I doing wrong, am I not praying hard enough, fasting good enough, reading the word enough, am I not walking in love enough, is there some sin that I need to walk away from or is there some one I need to forgive or ask them to forgive me. A man from our church spoke to me and told me that it is by my faith that Gideon is going to be healed. I have been thinking over that and I thought that I was walking in faith, I would go up there and lay my hands on him I would read the word over him and I would speak to the doctors about the report of the Lord. The man from our church also told me to read Romans and to pray about what it says. Even though I have been mad, confused and really just feeling like a basket case I dedicated my self to making sure that I start to read Romans. I have been blessed with a very good bible, " THE WOMEN'S STUDY BIBLE" This morning I cried out to God with tears, anger, confusion but also a boldness at his thrown. I saw that I was not walking in faith but yet trying to convince myself that I was, and to be honest I think I was even trying to convince every one around me. I think I thought that if I convinced myself enough it would come true. I have have had to beg God to forgive me, he knows my heart, he knew what I was doing even before I realized it. It hurts me to know that I let my best friend down! I know with out a shadow of a doubt that all God has to do is just do it and it shall be done. It has brought anger in me towards Jesus because I am thinking what are you waiting for God. It says in the word that 2,000 years ago your bore your stripes for our healing so Gideon and Isaac's healing is already done so why then is Gideon not getting any better and why is Isaac not walking yet? I have let what is evident in front of me to get to me, I have allowed Satin to bring lots of ANGER, confusion, doubt and worry. In my Bible study today it said this " worry is always wrong, for it paralyzes active faith in your life. When you worry, you assume responsibility for things you were never intended to handle. Jesus repeatedly taught; do not worry ( Gk. merimneo, lit. to divide the mind) Worry divides your mind between useful and hurtful thinking. Worrying does not change any thing [Matt. 6: 25-34] Worry is a choking, harmful emotion that saps your energy and elevates human strength and ingenuity above God's strength and his purposeful plan. Sources of worry include change, lack of understanding, and lack of control over your life. Worry opens the doors to worldliness, that is, preoccupation with the things of life. Worry is the opposite of faith, suggesting God can not be trusted to take care of you or to provide what you need [PHIL. 4:19]. Worry causes fear to crowd out faith. [Rev. 21:8] I know I need to just rest in the Lord and truly hand over every thing. I need to confess what the Lord has shown me for both Gideon and Isaac. Please pray for me and I would love to hear any wisdom or if the Lord gives you a verse or word for me. Thank you so much for taking the time to read this. Jesus loves you<>< |
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Thursday, March 30, 2000 11:04:00 PM melissa | |
re:Update on Gideon | ||
Father, |
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Sunday, April 02, 2000 10:26:55 AM waihun | ||
re:Update on Gideon | ||
Hi Melissa! |
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Sunday, April 02, 2000 10:26:49 AM jennifer | ||
Update on Gideon | ||
Yesterday morning I prayed and I totally released Gideon and every thing to the Lord. This time I had a screaming match with the right person, Satan. I took back what he tried to steal from me and I told the Lord that it is in his hands, not my will but thy will be done. I meant it with every thing in me. I am studying the word, watching videos, praising and praying. |
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Sunday, April 02, 2000 10:07:20 AM melissa | ||
changed on Sunday, April 02, 2000 10:22:07 AM |
re:Update on Gideon | ||
This is related to a previous posting: |
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Sunday, April 02, 2000 10:21:47 AM admin | ||