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        Update on Gideon
 
I haven't wrote lately to give a update and I apologize for that.
I have been busy being angry. My husband and I have so much going on in our lives I am just feeling like enough is enough. Let me explain what is all going on;
1.) Gideon- We only hear bad reports from the doctor. This is what the doctors report is;
-He is on three antibiotics again
- He has a yeast infection and another infection but the doctor's don't know what kind that one is yet.
-His blood pressure is down
-He is on a special machine for his oxygen and breaths ( it's a last resort thing, the name of this machine is called the rescue machine)
- they keep trying to take him off the machines so he can breath on his own and he can't handle it
- his lungs are getting worse
- he has P.I.E.
- his stomach for some reason is all bloated and they can't figure out what is wrong
- it has been three weeks and 5 days and no improvement
2.) Our home has mold in the walls, a man form the health dep. came and looked at our home and there is water in the walls in almost every room, the humidity is way to high in our home. He took a sample of one of our walls and is going to send it to a lab, when he pulled a piece of the wall out to show me it had mold all over it. Our family has been very sick due to all of the mold in our home. Some of the symptoms we are experiencing are; my husband is loosing his memory, we both have server headaches, our one son has had very high fevers and seizures, we are all very fatigue, my eyes are worse, our noses are stuffed & my two boys noses are constantly running. I have read on homes with mold and these are all side effects. So we are dealing with the builder and trying to get out of this home before Gideon comes home, because if your immune system is low then you will have a lot of health problems.
3.) So this means looking for a new home, which of course means finding time and money for this.
4.) My husband is going to work out of the home, the man he is working for now is not trust worthy.
5.) My older son has been getting into trouble.
6.) financially we are hurting BAD!!!!!!!
7.) Our insurance company is giving us problems
8.) Our son Isaac has been pretty sick for the last few weeks, Didn't eat for over a week.
9.) My Mom and Dad are gone to Michigan and before they left my Mom came over and said some very mean things to me.
10.) With my Mom gone it is hard to find a baby-sitter for our one son so I can go up during the day to see Gideon
11.) I have been sick and I have a breast infection
12.) Our one son just turned three so he just started a new school and a lot of help for him has stopped.
13.) It seems like when my husband and I go threw hard times we do it separate, We do not take each others hands and go through hard times. My husband does not know what to do when I cry so he leaves or pats me and acts like what are you crying about. I have just felt overwhelmed in the last few weeks with all that has come my way. I have felt like what am I doing wrong, am I not praying hard enough, fasting good enough, reading the word enough, am I not walking in love enough, is there some sin that I need to walk away from or is there some one I need to forgive or ask them to forgive me.
A man from our church spoke to me and told me that it is by my faith that Gideon is going to be healed. I have been thinking over that and I thought that I was walking in faith, I would go up there and lay my hands on him I would read the word over him and I would speak to the doctors about the report of the Lord.
The man from our church also told me to read Romans and to pray about what it says.
Even though I have been mad, confused and really just feeling like a basket case I dedicated my self to making sure that I start to read Romans. I have been blessed with a very good bible, " THE WOMEN'S STUDY BIBLE" This morning I cried out to God with tears, anger, confusion but also a boldness at his thrown.
I saw that I was not walking in faith but yet trying to convince myself that I was, and to be honest I think I was even trying to convince every one around me. I think I thought that if I convinced myself enough it would come true. I have have had to beg God to forgive me, he knows my heart, he knew what I was doing even before I realized it. It hurts me to know that I let my best friend down! I know with out a shadow of a doubt that all God has to do is just do it and it shall be done. It has brought anger in me towards Jesus because I am thinking what are you waiting for God. It says in the word that 2,000 years ago your bore your stripes for our healing so Gideon and Isaac's healing is already done so why then is Gideon not getting any better and why is Isaac not walking yet? I have let what is evident in front of me to get to me, I have allowed Satin to bring lots of ANGER, confusion, doubt and worry.
In my Bible study today it said this " worry is always wrong, for it paralyzes active faith in your life. When you worry, you assume responsibility for things you were never intended to handle. Jesus repeatedly taught; do not worry ( Gk. merimneo, lit. to divide the mind) Worry divides your mind between useful and hurtful thinking. Worrying does not change any thing [Matt. 6: 25-34] Worry is a choking, harmful emotion that saps your energy and elevates human strength and ingenuity above God's strength and his purposeful plan. Sources of worry include change, lack of understanding, and lack of control over your life. Worry opens the doors to worldliness, that is, preoccupation with the things of life. Worry is the opposite of faith, suggesting God can not be trusted to take care of you or to provide what you need [PHIL. 4:19]. Worry causes fear to crowd out faith. [Rev. 21:8]
I know I need to just rest in the Lord and truly hand over every thing. I need to confess what the Lord has shown me for both Gideon and Isaac.
Please pray for me and I would love to hear any wisdom or if the Lord gives you a verse or word for me. Thank you so much for taking the time to read this. Jesus loves you<>< 
Thursday, March 30, 2000 11:04:00 PM   melissa
 
      re:Update on Gideon   
Father,

I thank You for melissa and I know that she is safe in Your hands. Lord, thank You for Your hand of protection over her life and her family. Thank You for Your continual encouragement for her life and for her increase of her faith in You.

Give her strength and release more of Your healing power on Gideon. Thank You Father.

In Jesus' name, Amen. 
Sunday, April 02, 2000 10:26:55 AM waihun
 
      re:Update on Gideon   
Hi Melissa!

It seems to me that you know where all this confusion is coming from. We, as Christians know the difference of what God is trying to say to us and what Satan wants to bring to us, that is anger and confusion. My prayers go out to you and your family. Sometimes I think, "Why am I going through this?" when I am faced with a difficult situation. God is pulling me in one direction, but evil has a way of creeping in even when we have the slightest doubt of our faith. Believe that he does not want you to go through this. As fish are caught in a cruel net, or birds are taken in a snare, so men are trapped by evil times that fall unexpectedly upon them.[Eccesiastes 9:12] Memorize scripture so that when you feel like you want to cry say the verse out loud. The situation will be put into God's hands. Also, your husband and children look to you for comfort. Your husband is dealing with the situation the best he can without saying the wrong things to you. Make your family feel as if this is something very small. Tell your children that everything is going to be okay. Give them hope. Don't be so hard on yourself. You need to be strong for your family, and especially for Jesus. He wants you to rest in his arms. You can pray and ask God to heal your wounds. By this you can deal with the situation. You can find ways to help your family. Does your church know the situation your in? Do you live in a small community where people would be willing to raise money for you? Talk to your husband. You and your husband are one, going through this difficult situation together will help you rely on each other for comfort. Our journey in life is hard, but with you and your husband walking hand in hand will have everyone in heaven smiling down at you.
I will never leave you or forsake you, declares the Lord. [Joshua 1:5]

May the Lord direct your paths, 
Sunday, April 02, 2000 10:26:49 AM jennifer
 
      Update on Gideon   
Yesterday morning I prayed and I totally released Gideon and every thing to the Lord. This time I had a screaming match with the right person, Satan. I took back what he tried to steal from me and I told the Lord that it is in his hands, not my will but thy will be done. I meant it with every thing in me. I am studying the word, watching videos, praising and praying.
I believe God honored that pray and he knew my heart and knew that this time I truly did release every thing unto him.
Yesterday Gideon became better, He is off of his blood pressure med.
His oxygen is coming down and they are slowing working to get him off the one machine. He looks so good, his color is that of a regular new born.( Praise God!!!!!!!)
A Joy came over me today, I was laughing and singing with my kids. It was also a inner joy.
We know that God has every thing under his care.
There is still a lot of decisions we have to make and things that we have to take care of such as our home and the job but we know that God is going to open the doors that needs to be open and close the doors that need to be closed. Pray for wisdom in these areas.
I found a great site , it will register you for a free women of faith cruise it only takes a minute, God bless you and thank you so much for all of your prayers
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The most influential sites I found on the 'Net:
Handmaidens: Christian Women's Webzine http://www.ionanet.com/women/ 
Sunday, April 02, 2000 10:07:20 AM melissa

changed on Sunday, April 02, 2000 10:22:07 AM

 
      re:Update on Gideon   
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